For those who don't know an 'Onsen' is japanese inn with usually a natural spring in which is purposely for bathing. Somestime indoor, sometimes outdoors, sometimes mixed, sometimes not... but with all the snow outside, after taking a steamy shower I looked outside at a beautiful snowing scenery, it feels like I was at an onsen. The steam of hot water in the cold air cool and comfortable... watching snowflakes fall.

I cleaned over the weeked so my place now smells of vanilla popuri flowers, steam chinese pork buns and dumplings smells wafting from my kitchen, hot jamine tea, clements afterwards. It feels like I am on vaction *oh I am (giggles)* but I haven't left my home. Having a warm and clean home can be really relaxing. I guess I'll try and do some drawing and maybe watch a movie or read a good book later... take things slow once in a while, enjoy a moment, only humans can do that. ^_^

Wow it snow so much last night! *and it is still snowing* Looks like we are going to have a white Christmas after all! I guess I am lucky I did all my shopping. ^_^ I love watching snow fall, having a hot meal of rice, sausage, seasoned steamed vegtables, tea or coffee. Spend times just relaxing.

I find it sort of funny, durning snowly days I would dream about rolling green hills, the crystal sea on the horizon, hear the rustle of fields and flowers, smell the salt air... and then in the summer I would dream of pure white snow days, untouched by man, stillness of peace and falling snow, coolness of the days... I guess I dream of always what is not there, and when it is I dream of something else, it really makes me treasure them. The change, the flow of seasons, it's wonderful.

I hope everone is well, healthy, in a warm home, may you all be safe and happy. Happy Holidays!

Well here we are again, the holidays and Christmas.

I hope you are all doing well, have a warm home to go to, spend some time with those you love. Things are far from being perfect and getting done but I take pleasure in getting things done as much as I can, cleaning, cooking *I love clemetines during Christmas*. I have fortunately done most of my Christmas shopping, but it is fun to sometimes just walk around and watch all the festivities, sometimes you might get lucky and find something cute or on sale.

Think and doing for others has always been something I think we should treasure and honor, it has always brought a smile to my face and warmed my heart to give and care for others.

When think of you I feel like walking on clouds
You touch my heart like no one else
The first day we met and said hello
My heart was beating so fast

The warm smile that took my breath away...
Making the best of what we got is what we had.
Sharing hearts, hands and mind, you showed me a world anew.
The treasure in my heart that I never forget.

Truely time is like a river, it flows along... like a gentle stream or raging rapids, it flows... sometimes it is like muddy waters, sometimes crystal clear. It can wash away or it can bring life... But wheather time flows quickly or slowly it flows evenly for all. But time is always flowing, therefore precious. Each moment like a drop of water, try and hold on to a moment and you will lose it, but let go and flow and one day you will see new horizons.

Well December is here...

There are so many things happening this month, well first the bad things... I recieved notice from the IRS there was some income that wasn't reported in 2006, I think it was when I was working 2 jobs, one was part time at a video store. It was a good job, but the manager never did our paper work and report taxes, I never received a W-2 from them. I have tried to contact them but they just say they don't have the any paperwork anymore. I guess I'll have to take responsibility since no one else will... I only laugh at even though store and manger is no longer there are taxes can still haunt you.

This weekend I went out, money is tight, but I still wanted to buy Christmas gifts for my brother and sister and family. I bought something nice in a book store for 1/2 for about $20 but then was accidently charged $220 for, the manager said he would void the sale and refund me. I hope it goes through... ^_^ wow...

I then proceed to do some weekend grocery shopping, bought some tofu, leeks, pickles and frozen chinese dumplings to cook in the strip district. As I waited for the bus to take me home, it seemed to take forever. But the sun was setting, it left such a beautiful horizon I watched the clouds float by like a silent ocean in golden light... tonight I will be thinking of all those I care about and how we are all under this beautiful sky....

Live honestly with others, but most live honestly with yourself.

It's easy to not be honest. Things happen in your life, maybe not terrible, but sometimes you have to deal with. We can turn away, run away, but what we can't runaway is from ourselves. We can put on a brave face, pretend to be strong, but no one is born strong...

I don't comunicate well with my family. I live differently than them, I can live happily in my own way and I don't know if they can understand that. So I live away from them, but still I don't want to disappoint them, regardlessly of how far we are... I want them to be proud that I am able to live on my own, that I can take care of myself. Each time I run into trouble I feel I don't want to talk them about it, that I will take care of it myself, but then it feels like I don't want them to know me too sometimes.

Is it better that your family knows what is happening to you even if they can't do anything about it? My mother in particular is a worrier, but I like to still keep her updated. I tell her, but not to worry her, but to let her into my life... and I'll still take care of things myself, I just don't feel I lived all my life and realized I excluded my family.

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